That morning…

 

Almost exactly on this day a few years ago, this early edition of “Happy Friday” went to a very small mailing list. Very small. They were people I knew, who knew me and my situations/story well.  I was not in the best place in a lot of areas in my life, but I was growing and learning and on the way to purpose and happiness.

I read this and screamed THANK YOU LORD this morning. I cried.

ANYONE, hurting over ANYTHING, stop and listen to God’s direction and word in your life. When I say stop, stop and listen and OBEY.  It was finally my OBEDIENCE as hard as it was, that moved me away from MESS.

This morning….

I don’t know how I got so emotional this morning, kinda hesitant to put myself out there, but I need to share this with you……

 

When I woke up this morning, I was thankful but a little preoccupied with all I had to do today and as I drove to work I left a message for someone I needed a favor from, he did not call me back since yesterday and I started to think to myself, if only I could have things my way with these “Man” sometimes……..then God spoke so clearly to me………I ended up driving to the beach and crying my eyes out, not out of sadness but out of not understanding how to express the overwhelming mix of emotions……JOY, gratitude, comfort, peace, happiness, fulfillment and it felt like a release of disappointment and sadness also…..

 

What God said to me I have to share……

 

Your boss is not stressing you out, you are taking on stress because he is challenging you and you don’t like to be challenged.  Broaden your shoulders and face the challenges, look back on all the lessons thus far, I am TEACHING you RAEH.  You have to learn to be a leader, some lessons are harder than others.
 

What you think you don’t have financially, you HAVE.  It’s not in your bank account, but it’s there.  Now you have to recognize and acknowledge who is in your life that you can rely on, they are your roots.  Value, build, invest in your relationships with them.  They will hold you up, but I needed you to recognize that. You DON’T have to be everybody’s root, that’s not your job all the time, it’s ok to fall back.

 

That MAN you are pining over……that OTHER MAN you feel so disappointed by….I did not give to you because – he is not for YOU. Do not get in your own way by trying to KEEP  him or take him back.

The disappointment you allow yourself to feel is because of my protection RAEH. I will not have you getting so wrapped up in his attention that you lose focus of my plan for your life……….I will not cover your eyes from who he truly is so that you think he will change, you know what he is……………….so he will continue to disappoint you…….I don’t care how much love you pour out…….they are not YOURS.  When you are ready, you will have the man you need.  For now, recognize it for what it is.

 

The great life you envision is yours and is waiting, continue to attract it into your life, put in the time and energy and it will all come back to you.  Do not settle for mediocre, there are many average people out there that would love to keep you in their company for their own entertainment.  STOP needing to be everyone’s entertainment.  Use your energy to continue to grow so that you can share your life’s blessings with your roots.

 

STOP SEEING DISAPPOINTMENT IN THINGS/PEOPLE/RELATIONSHIPS/SITUATIONS THAT DO NOT MATCH YOUR FANTASIES.  I AM IN YOU, I AM PROTECTING YOU AND PROVIDING FOR YOUR LIFE SO THERE WILL BE SOME THINGS THAT DON’T BELONG AND THEREFORE I WILL NOT GIVE THEM TO YOU…….SIMPLE!

 

Learn to listen to yourself, your body, your heart.  I am in you. 

 

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Dat long, but all I have to say after that is:-

 Roka aint no saint

Roka don’t rely on religion

Roka gat problems

Roka gat some bad ways

but

Roka is growing, blessed and thankful.

 

Sieve it, keep what ya need, throw da rest away.

 I Love yall, happy weekend.

To know where I’ve grown to now, all I can say is that the power of God and understanding your TRUE self is real!

Happy Friday yall!